Fucking upset.

I'm sorry about that vulgar that I used to name this post.  I was really really upset.

I finally understand , how was the feeling when a knife just stabbed right into your heart . It's painful , so hurtful. I know it's a simple game, in fact it really was , but how could this be ? I thought we were the perfect two ? I went home and shower with extremely cold water , hoping to numb my pain . I'm so glad it helps, cause I am freezing ice cold right now.

Oh well  , I'm just sad. so sad.... that tears kept welling up my eyes . Just to let you know,  I love you .a lot dear. I'll be fine .

Alright.... shall finished my DNT before I sleep.  Again , I will be fine . I will be .