I want a change.

Sick of being myself , sick of every single shits in me . I hate it when one thoughts trigger to another and another , leaving me full of tears . It sucks . I have been crying to sleep for a few consecutive nights already. I need to stop and reflect upon myself . I need tonight 's time to do some self-reflection with emo songs being my buddy , wrapped around my blanket with my pillow there giving me a tight hug . That's all I need. It's enough. I don't mind being alone . It's perfectly fine for me .