As you can see from my title , i gonna blog out everything ...
beware , its a wordy post .
Upset upset upset ): There's just too much things happening in a day . Shit everything .
Let's start from friday . It was the most upset and tired day ever. Who to turn to ? who to trust ? I question myself. Yet , i told Alicia everything . She's just the best partner i could ever turn to. People are just too fake. I got accused again and again . I got to face something that was so sudden , it just pop out just like that yknow. Then , someone that i tot i could rely on , that paticular person that understands me just turn out to be the same as the others. He still can play around , fooling around like nobody business. TSK. =/ I got super irritated and piss seriously. Haiz , everyone is just creating unnesscary attention . Shit sia.I hate cowards that don't dare to face reality. *humph ... And , Osmund , I admit , i broke down , as shown from my watery eye in class. Thanks for always telling me to stay strong :)
Before the council duty , i was affected by my bball performance. Lousy shit. ): I guess , i could never feel the joy in it anymore no matter how hard i tried... yes, I got damn affected by didn't show it. =/ Then , sec2 ptr was in fact tiring . The truth is , everything just got mess up . Me and chloe was the prize presenter , yet we ruined everything by going out late , while the principle tot there's was no prices to be given out initially. Though , no one blame us , we took the blame. In fact , we should, dont we ? There's a lot a lot of movement in the hall . Everything just got screw up , from my perspective. I tot we were different , we would do better . I guess i was wrong to think about that. Now , it just makes me afraid of what would happen in a few months time when we take over. We are just too complacent , i guess.
And then , otw home , i was talking with Alicia about family family stuff. I think that she was super upset by the way her parents 'treated' her. Trust is the key, isn't it ? While ,on the other hand , i'm just glad to have a parents like my mum&dad. They are way better, in fact , not a day that i would get troubled by my 'family' cus they are always supportive no matter what :D
♥
I hope you would stay strong , and stop giving yourself uncesscary stress.
Allow yourself to do what you want .
and , make sure things work the way you wanted
so that you can prove to your mum that you can handle everything well .
Take her hurtful words as she love you , she want you to do better and better alright girl :)
Anything can tell us lo , we will always be there like how you be there for us :)
With lots of Loves ,
Saturday
you , i feel so happy for you , yet sadness filled me afterwards. . ..
As for me , it will always seem like a cycle , a merry-go-round. Never ending stuffs. The worst is yesterday . I bet you all can never imagine how sad can i be . I tot it was nothing , but turn out , i was devastated over it . IT just meant the world to me , and it become ............... ): I looked at it , it just contain all the memories , all the hurts and sweats that were once contained. *heartache* My mum still can say ' i give you money , you go buy new one lah , i not purposely one ... ' wtf . Yesterday was indeed a downpour , in fact now , it just became worst. There's just too much pain , i still can't accept the fact that it was damaged..
I question myself , Haiz, why do all the shit stuff happen to me =/ Now , i got to face what it takes.
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