Those Smiling Days.

My feelings , 

woke me up each night.

I constantly feel like I'm missing out on everything. Like everything is happening somewhere else. Like I'm not living life to the fullest. The problem is that I never do anything to change it. I just sit here and write about it. I sit here and stare around while somewhere over the rainbow amazing things are happening. Amazing things that I am missing out on.. I need to change now because before I know it this will all be over.Then , maybe I shouldn't wait until I'm ready. I don't think I'm ever going to be ready to change. I doubt anyone ever really is. The time is now. If it's a sign I've been waiting for, here it is. Everything will turn out fine, I hope. If it doesn't , i know i'll be able to take the blow becus this is reality after all .Right.  

i'm afriad of getting replace by some of them . Even though i know i wont be able to make it , i still have that glimpse of hope lingering around .