Remainder.

Energy Level : -0

It's hard to describe the feeling in your heart at times.. it's not easy.. and it never was. I was trying so hard to look out for what kind of emotion was running through my heart but to no avail. Certain periods, I'll have a huge gush of emotions flowing right through my body, and I've got no idea what is it but all I know is that it's making me feel very awful. Was it anguish? Languish? Tears? Joy? Laughter? I've got the slightest idea just yet. I want to go deep down, and take this heavy stone off me. I really want to, because I detest this feeling. I hope the loomy skies would just past by me. Let me forget all about it, I can't. For it's staying within me holding it's roots down to the soil very tightly. Besides all these things, I've got to say, I've to get myself to stand up and remind myself never to fall into such a situation again, I can't afford to lose it. I've got to keep it down , keep my cool ...Thus, forgive me when i do something wrong lately.

When I flapped my wings, I thought I could fly, but as I flew higher, I fell harder. I don't know why I'm always aiming for things I can't reach? And yes, I'm a very failure and I'm never a been a good lover nor a good friend to any of you. Have I ever been? Nope. I feel so lost, and I'm being conformed into my own world, please help me out. Pick me up, fly me off.

Someday , i'll spill my emotion out , I just hadn't done enough for you . I'm sorry . I can't bring myself to the facts that everything went so wrong..I've nvr thought of being like this , never. Continue someday when i feel like..I need to vent it all out again & again .