How true, it feels as if my heart has one big hole right now. It hurts more than how it usually did, I've no clue why I'm always feeling this way or why I can't seem to feel happy. I was falling at a fast speed .. I carried my hopes to high, only to keep rolling down. Everyone else looks so happy , I truly wonder if they have an empty soul just like me? Everyday, I fill myself up with the laughter I can bring to my ownself. I reminisce, and it feels like I'm living in my memories. It all look so beautiful and satisfying.
Hey readers , back to my previous post, Today was a very good example of what i've mentioned . I ask myself , have i done trying? Or i just hadn't tried enough. People said it was just a small test and just 'chill' and relax. But i can't and i wouldn't. Different people had their own method of studying and view things at different perspective. I can't blame them for that. I'm not them .Neither they are me . I'm not like that for the past few months , but nw i'm worried becus i am constantly failing by 1 or 2 marks. (why) >?Now is a critical period of time that judge whether am i on the right track onot , the more i shouldn't did like this...Its not easy for outsider to see how much effort one had put into . I wrote pages and pages of notes .People just put on surface words and view things thru the surface which is obviously false ..I feel so demoralized. Should i just stop having an HIGH expectation of myself so that i wouldn't fall like today again . *FEAR .
I'm totally not myself these past days . I know myself ...........................
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