Reminisces

I'm sure everyone knows when is the very time to stop. The very moment where you know you shouldn't continue , the moment where you know you shouldn't pause but to stop. I seriously hate this awful feeling being presented to me. I've got no other choice but to accept it because this is what makes you happy. Sometimes, I can't help but look back and ask myself why didn't I do certain things or why I did it. Afterall, at that very point of time, I thought it was a right decision , but as time passes, I'm just starting to regret those choices I have made. Everything seems all like a dream when you take a wrong step and face every hurtful matter with an excruciating pain. Even though there's no such thing as a time machine, I wish and live in my world of dreams hoping there was a time where I can take it and travel back to the time I committed a mistake and amend it. Everything starts with a "if only ..." If only I didn't do such a thing, would it lead myself to this place?

Thoughts and plenty of them are flooding through my mind at this moment. Questions like these seem to never get an answer as it's pointless because if only there was a restart button to put everything into place.I can't accept the fact that a single step I took would affect the whole situation. I didn't know blinking my eye at the crucial moment could cause my failure. I regret that I did certain things and things I didn't do. But as everything is running through my mind, I know there's only one thing I can do, that's to get out of my dreams and live life as it is now, don't regret no longer , Go on. Yes, I will with sheer determination. But I'm not strong, it's hard.. Just putting up a strong front doesn't prove anything. The worst , is seeing people change and gone forever....):



Argh.....I've been on so much pressure all these while . I'll blog to make me feel the tiny bit better . But sometimes , not at all . \; Its been so hard.................