ƸӜƷ Angela's

As much as I tried to control my tears from falling in the public, they are not within my control. Tears roll down unknowingly. There's so much memories created with you within a year and I've never ever forgotten a single bit of them, little or big. These memories kept me going because I do laugh whenever I reminisce back and of course it remind me of how my girls been through everything with me in order for my name to appear during speech day. It would never be the same without them. If I get to choose again, it would still be them I want to go through thick and thin with. 

Those darkest days still haunt me time to time, feeling insecure now and then and I wouldn't deny. It had already been a scar, a very fresh scar that always trigger my emotions each time I had to bring them up. Even though my friends been telling me to erase you from my life, I absolutely couldn't bear to becus it's you. You whom I rely a lot during O's. I blame myself for not handling the situation well. I blame myself for letting you go through so much pain alone, I swear it still hurt. For that, I always owe you an apology. Love is selfish. Based on the you I know, you sure appear damn strong on the surface but actually deep inside you're just as vulnerable. That is what hurts me the most because it actually means that no one, absolutely no one was there for you when you're in pain mentally. I know it all.

I dare to say, you're still a friend I don't want to lose be it now or before. You've done so so much for me to be happy and now is your turn to be. I wish you're even happier than I am.  I know I'm not someone you would text/call , same goes for me but I would never stop concerning thru your friends or even if it's mean standing aside and watch thru social media. My perspective is always the same, please be happier yourself and do know how much I cherish you as a friend of mine. I sincerely hope the girls are with me as long as possible.