Been so long since I had a proper post in terms of organizing my thoughts and so forth. I would like to skip all the happenings because I'm just so lazy to organize them well so I would do a lot of typing instead.
Traveling to school everyday is such a chore especially when it is so far away from home. The position I am in is always not a wise choice but I'm still taking it all. I know clearly my ability and how much I can achieved. I am fully aware of my friends' ability as well. This is not a competition but I just need more motivation to achieve what I want and need. Every single day I feel like telling myself to give it all. Live like there's no tmr. I give my best. I work hard, study hard and play hard as well. Trust me, it is tiring to go out every single day fullfilling all the duties of mine. I'm drowning in my own expectations, I can't help it. So much things running through my head every single day. I don't like it when I'm showing my bad shape to people I'm close with. Been reflecting a lot lately. I need to trust, to have faith and to control my emotions well. I want to become a better person, more positivity in me, & more courageous to do what I like.
Recently, I just feel like slowing down my pace, but my life don't allow me to. Tonight I'm not sad or whatever as I'm typing this. I just need a space for me to say out how I actually feel without the need of replies. I'm strong enough to handle this, I won't give up easily!!!
Current thought in mind: There is this very strong will in me after watching korean variety shows and Zee's bungee jumping video, I want to go when I'm 21 years old too, Hopefully to experience this myself ! Can't wait can't wait! Hope this passion don't die off before 21!!
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