Friendship.

Finally lying down on my comfy bed while I am typing this post of mine here. I've been slightly affected by what we said under the stars. The cooling breeze, the night lights and the green patch of grass, everything was perfect for a h2h talk. I don't know when they became such an important bunch of people to me . I miss them so much after our last outing which is the adventure cove and I'm glad jiajia and violet think the same way as I do so I'm not so one-sided. Being with them make me really happy and I never thought I would meet people like them in poly. I've never had a proper mix clique because of gender issue and i often end up sticking to only girls in the clique. It's like there's a barrier issue between gender yet it is still fun each time we go chalet and buffet outings, it's not like they are not important but I guess the clique is slowing drifting and one by one is leaving. I can't do anything but to stand aside and watch because it is not within my control...  We mention about friendships and what they said really make me so disappointed because I feel that they don't see what I see. They are way too negative about friends which make me took a step back on myself valuing friendship so much. It's true that people come and go, but I never thought that those I hold closely to would go because those are the ones I invest my time and effort in. I always believe that if both parties put in an effort to meet up, then what's there to drift apart and even if there's really very little time to meet, we just need to know that the friendship we hold is sth very precious despite the long distance r/s. I hold very closely to my principles and if I say I would take a bullet for you, I really would. I believe in long lasting and true friendships like what I had with a few of my sec sch friends and weiting. I like to think that if everyone want the friendships to last, they would put in the effort and time, no point forcing and if the friendship ever fade away, it is meant to be just like how I see xx now. Today, I really see so much from another point of view and I really want to be a better person, thinking in the shoes of others as well. Even though all of us were pretty emo just now but it's all over now! The conclusion we drawn is that we shall let nature take it course =) nothing would change guys!!