Closure.

I guess this time I got all sick of talking behind each other's back and I hadn't had any proper post on how am I feeling exactly after the very first incident had happen. I'm not playing the pushing blame right now because there's no one to blame but myself. I guess I was way too stubborn and neglect the fact about the other party's feelings. I admit she's at fault , so am I for not letting the mistakes go and keep harping on that one mistake she make in the friendship. I shouldn't do that and I need to see the good in people. I've been building up walls from everyone because this is how it works for me . I need to let go because I will only end up hurting our friendship and dragging innocent people in to this. I'm glad I've made the first move and things are really getting better because this time is real and different. Been so long since the 'Bitches WA group' get so active when everyone just talk it out about random stuffs . =) I can't wait for the outing that are made for just the 6 of us.  Letting go is the key to happiness and rn I feel completely free .

I couldn't do that without someone that known me for 5 years ,
someone that would take my tantrum each time I decided to vent it out on him,
someone that would listen to me and give me the right advice to do what is right or wrong,
black and white he wouldn't be biased even though I'm close to him.
someone that would bother to lecture me if I turn astray.
someone that would hug me close to him each time I shed a tear secretly.
someone that would hold me tighter whenever I push him away.
someone that bothers to talk to me for hours just to make sure that I know what to do...
someone that knows my personality so well without the need to tell him,
someone that would walk closely behind me knowing that I needed some space alone
someone that would always tell me "你没事就好"
Honestly, I couldn't be more thankful  of his presence today. He make me realise how naive I was to only see one picture. He said" 放下不是说说而已，心要真的放下才可以" I reflect a lot today. Thank you and sorry for being a burden in your life .I know I couldn't made this far without you being by my side and I wouldn't find anyone like you again.

I shall end off with a msg send by my bff. Here goes,

I read this msg AGAIN time to time ever since it was send to me ytd. Those heartfelt words give me strength to carry on each time I question my self-worth.  Even if it is just a simple msg, it definitely means a lot to me, I mean what is best friend for right ?:)