ƸӜƷ Angela's

There's so much inside me that trigger me to write a blog post right now. Qianyu and I had a great day out finally spending quality time with each other and our topic was "Losing faith in guys"

I don't know what was that all about that kept my mind occupied on my way home. I ponder upon guys these days. Are they really toying around girls' feelings or we are simply too demanding.. I really don't know how a r/s can start off with sparkles , fairytale and it seem like everything just fall perfectly. She is all that he can see and don't mind staying up late each night just to chat with each other longer. Must happiness always end ? Must a r/s really get into this state? Why can't a couple cool themselves down and worked out the next day? Why spent time and effort to woo someone when you know all that you do is to hurt her ultimately. Do they know that hurt can never be heal perfectly because scars remain...... So much I've questioned myself and I can't get any closure for any of them. Honestly, I'm afraid of losing the one I love and I hate the thought of nothing last forever. It's quite saddening to see how realistic the reality is . How can one ever walk out of another's life like it was nothing and that they were nothing? I'm bothered very badly by the cruelty of guys which I can never ever do the same to the person I love. Perhaps, they were right I am clingy and I often hang on to something that I've lost for a very long time so that explains why I was so badly hurt. I can never walk out of the dark side and all the hurt they had cause. Every time I walk down the memory lane, my heart always ache no matter how much I have to suppress it. I can never forget all the pains I've been through and I told my best friend, "我真的很害怕又回到那些痛苦和伤心的日子" tears welled up my eyes because I can picture myself in the sea of nostalgia, screaming for help and struggling to break free of the chains.

I can't stand heartbreaks and I pray Life will be better for myself and my love ones ahead. Xx