Right person , wrong time.

Isn't this bad? You got the right person but he/she appear at the wrong time. I'm stuck in between nowhere. I can't move on when something keeps holding me back. I need an answer, answer to every doubts in mind. Why can't things turned back like before? Is that too much to ask for? The dream was probably one of the worst one ever. I woke up and just kept crying and crying so much so that I have to text him, the one that make me cry in the dream.. I appear not to care but to no avail. I find myself more than often to think , think when I'm alone , think in the middle of the night, think when I had the luxuriant of time. I don't call them over- thinking but I just like to reflect on myself every now and then and make sure I always try to become a better person. Very often, I like to keep myself occupied , find things that make me happy & do things that is worthwhile. There are still many friends awaiting for me , especially those that mean a lot in my heart. I can't afford to lose them like how I lose some. I want my love ones to stay close with me , doing silly things at times, putting up with my rants or nonsense and just simply accepting who I am. Even if one day , I might not be around with them I hope they still remember me and never ever forget the times we had. I want to leave nothing but good memories behind for them. To my best friends and those that I say I love, know that I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL.( EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU)  Your are so much more important than myself , I swear.

stay strong.