Suddenly have the urge to blog in the morning. I never thought I would received these four person message over the weekends what more was that they were exactly the important ones in my life. :( Sigh , it made me reflect on myself what could have been done better . I'm so upset , upset by the fact that disappointments always kock hard onto me . I want to be better . I don't want to let them down.. Everytime when they know I'm upset , they would always send long enouraging messages to me and make sure that I continue to press on. Honestly , I didn't replied them because part of me had guilt written all over my face. I didn't played my best , I let my fear took control of my mind and body . I let them down . I know I don't deserve them treating me so well and nice. I mustn't let myself fall anymore. I got to stand back up on my feet and fight for the very last chance on Wednesday. I want to make those tough trainings and to the people that is always behind me , worthwhile .
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