Back to reality

School will start tomorrow and I certainly can't suppressed all my feelings inside. I need to let it out , hence I'm right here to blog again . I bet no one actually understand what exactly am I feeling right now so let me tell you ,  

many of the time when I want to tell somebody about the anxiety I'm having , they would always tend to say that I'm just over-thinking , being sensitive and all work out for nothing, but I don't feel this way at all . I believe all these mix emotions came for a reason and I must deal with it one way or another. Going back to sec 5 seem like a whole new secondary school to me  , it's like I'm back to sec 1 not knowing anyone or anything. There's no more Qianyu , Krishnan for math , no more rophe and osmund to perks me up in combined humanities lesson. Most importantly , I "lost" my honey which indirectly makes me feel so insecure without her in school :((. Many of the familar faces were gone too. Sigh . I must really perks up and not feel like shit . I had been telling myself to be positive , positive and more positive for the good start but I know my heart refuses to listen and I'm left hanging like that . I'm not prepared for O levels or school because I thought I will be leaving . That what makes everything so hard right now.  However , I'm willingly to work hard for my studies and don't mind the amount of heavy workload or sacrificing my sleep because I want to get into my desired course utimately. I really hope I could cope and ALL goes well , please. Someone please take away all my worries and let me have a peace in mind . 

Looking at those hot air balloons make me feel so much more enlighten by the beautiful scenery . How I wish I get to experience it myself one day or even have a hot air balloon hanging beside my dream catcher ! That would be so cool:)   Oh well , those were all just fat hope and whatever it is , I really hope  2013 will be a good year for my boyfriend , my friends and I (; / :(