Time, oh time.

Perhaps , I still hadn't got over all these bullshits. It's so hard to start ALL over again while it's so much easier said than done. Sigh . There's just too much worries in me, be it necessary or not.I don't care I just like to think about it.....

Been really really a tough rough week for me after my depressing fake hope results, I can't get any better. Well, back to training , It was never better, indeed tough. I'm really trying my best but my best is NEVER enough , it just doesn't feel the same anymore. Physically and mentally demanding for me , really. Thank god for the long weekends , I really need the time and rest. How I wish time could fast forward to the end of 2013 .. I really don't think I'm ready for Sec 5 life.... I can't believe I actually teared during training today , It's just so not me who would be such a weakling. Why is this happening , never felt so tired and torturous before ..Maybe I must admit I'm getting older. The first person I thought was honey , I really hope she's out there at the canteen , just waiting for me to end training and give me a long tight hug.... I really don't know how should I feel to be apart from someone so close to my heart .

Alright, maybe I should just dropped the topic since this would not bring me anywhere. Shall continue waiting for my boyfriend to arrive in Singapore :< Really miss him a lot too. Goodnight readers.

^Can I see some hope please.