I convince myself not to think about it , yet i still find myself in a sea of thoughts right until now. Each time , i persuade myself to forget you , forget you AND forget you , but you just keep appearing in front of me , keep wavering around my thoughts. It is not that i didn't try at all . I did. I tried so hard but to no avail :< Everywhere i go , Everything i do reminds me of you . It may seems little , but i remembered a whole lot. We did so much that i didn't realised. Many times , i saw you outside. I don't think it is a coincidence that we met .Today , i saw you . My heart skipped . I still cannot forget that quick glance of you . My heart definitely still hurt when i look into your eyes , so i turn away and walk away fast. I wanted to smile, i wanted to show the best of me to you , but just not now. :( I saw you with another girl . My heart immediately sank to the bottom . Was it your girl best friend or girlfriend? This question just keep spinning around my head. :'( While i was walking home , i was like 'so what' ? "You think so much for what? It is no longer your business right ? " Even if i care this dam thing , i am pretty sure you don't.
People say , fight for what you love, but i don't think this way . I didn't fight in order for you to find your happiness. I don't want to seem like a burden to you . It was never my intention . If only you'd hold on a little more, everything will change right now... I often ask myself this question , Why did you let go :( ?
Maybe i am not pretty enough?
Maybe i'm not good enough for you ?
Maybe i am not compatible with you?
Maybe i wasn't the right one for you ?
Maybe i don't have a nice figure?
Maybe i hadn't put in my best for you to fall for me?
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The list just goes on and on .
This is getting nowhere. I feel like a trash just by the thought of how fail am i . Once again , I'm useless. I'm nothing.
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