i lie , i pretend

Hello hellos :D Firstly , i was pretty amazed by the number of people that drop by my blog everyday without fail just to check my dead updates everyday :)  Well , i can say i love all of you (: i would want to blog more often becus i've got an interest on blogging , it allows me to throw all my rants , fustration , sadness and all my mix mix emotions.>.<  Its creepy when a person that you used to know become a person that is not what you always know. Very creepy , doesn't it ? It has always been bothering me . .. =/

I miss all the times , those craziest moments. Those unfullfilled dreams.

Okays , let summarise this week . its pack with  test and test and more test. I got demoralize bit by bit when i know all my lousy results. ):   Honestly , i just dont have the mood to study , its not the time yet. I still want to skip all my lesson , not going to school everyday . School was always mundane . always.  Going home early was not what we always do . We often got to stay back for training till late night and competition followed by competition . But now , its totally different . Sometimes , i tell myself that its much better now , dont it? I feel much more relax than ever and get to sleep more , feel less tired in school ....  I hate this contradicting feeling .
"Should i or should i not ? "was what the question that pop out to me everytime. I just feel like letting all go . Just let it go... will it be better ? O.O  Time , please let us feel better.


Some updates about me now ,
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Last week went out to eat buffet with qianyu , van and shihui :) They are awesome people. I love them ! :D
Great friends like kexin , qianyu ,darlings including some jokers in class that make me laugh everytime more more , they never fail to pull me up whenever i feel like falling  . In fact , they know me , they know what's happening . Quite surprising to learn that :>   

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Today , went out with my classmates to do the ytzen challenge kind of thing , walk around yishun park with the freaking hot weather ! T_T    Tiring but quite fun hanging with them , playing swing and some stupid stuffs :)   Thanks Mdm Is for the treat of KFC. :}  Afterwards , played ball with some other friends. I lost all my ball sense, i just feel so lousy about bball . =/

Look at the amount we ate ! Haha O.O

My ugly bangs :X

Thats all for the week . I cant wait for the break , even though its short. I just need rest and happiness. I can't wait to spent more time with friends . Can't wait to eat buffet with darlings again . HAHA.  This coming week attending some NE course with Marcus and school related events like community heart day . I hope it turn out well and fun (:  Goodnight ! (: