If i hadn't walk out hurriedly that time ,
i would have miss everything, even if it was just for a seconds
Hello guys ! Thanks for constantly dropping by checking for my new update of my life / rants/ unhappiness blahblah . Talking about today , totally worn out by waking up early tgt with the grp members to practice for the class performance. I really hope it turn out well T_T I was moodless today thus I don't have the mood of going out squeezing with the crowd , i'm sorry darlings. So.... what i've done today was SLEEPING ! Its been long-long-long seen i've slept comfortably for 4 hours :) And and , much more happier note that totally enlighten me was my dream , had two dreams in a row today , i'm complex. Actually now , i was hoping to go back to the same dream again for tonight please please please~ .. Cus , i miss you.
Lately , everyday life was pack with school work . Never fail .. Wheras, Training atmosphere had beginning to become more intense. I'm afraid of tuesday . i dont want the day to come..I feel that i'm not mentally nor physically ready for it . Why am i contradicting myself then ? I've been waiting , training so long just for the zone yet now i dont want it to come . tsk . weird much . I can't let this feeling of mine put to ease. Its been haunting me since friday , when me and alicia was in deep thoughts over it . Lol.
I believe we are all scared , nervous having the sort of sensation mood back , we are all putting up a fake mask. Argh..........pressure and more pressure day by day . Can things turn out well enough , or just that we hadn't done enough? I still can't figure out the empty spaces in my mind nd heart >:
Save us.
Last sunday , camwhore with weiting :D
Tht day was perhaps the worst day i ever had... For the first time , i hate myself. F myself.... Still, thankyou weiting for being so understanding .
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