Staycation with love

Hello readers! Technically just came back from Malaysia ytd! Had a mini getaway with my bf to Malaysia for a night. It was merely window shopping , food and more food! Here's some pictures below. (I seriously think we are beginning to look like each other a lot )  

Our dinner at old town coffee which was a huge disappointment! 

HAHAHA^ 

Oh my I swear I miss the food cart right now! It was like the best food I've ever eaten. I wish there's more when I go bkk! 

We finished within a few minutes! Hahhaa! I think we are monsters. 

Next we go on to cook maggie mee. Oh god, can you feel the amount of fats I've gained?!  

Him sleeping remind me of a scene in fifty shades where mr grey just watched  the girl as she sleep. Simplest romance ever! I certainly had fun laughing at this joker and hear him sing. There's even some short videos which I'm contemplating whether to upload to fb or Twitter soon. Hehe!  "Malaysia is the only place where we are feeling rich!" Thanks for the laughter and love this two days and certainly another great memories forge:')

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I must say it has been the longest period of time since we last met and I miss him so much. Each time we go out, I really do cherish all the time spent with him because God knows when will we meet again. We are different in a way of handling r/s and I like how carefree this is. I love the peace now. I realise it takes a lot of courage, faith and emotional strength to let your guard down and trust. Trust that everything will be okay at the end of the day. Especially for me, I'm very emotional and sensitive, it took me a lot of time and effort not to overthink, stress less and the process was made harder due to much hurt that had been caused along the way. I am really trying very hard for the ones I love. I love how eventually small little actions can put a smile across their faces. I don't agree with people saying do not change yourself for others. People change every single day due to circumstances and I accept those changes but for myself , I want to change for the better and only choose to let others see the best of me not the otherwise. I think I've become a better individual along the way because I was way worst than who I am now back then. I'm happy with good changes. 

Yet with all that has been said,  sometimes I caught myself shedding a few tears as I close my eyes to sleep, caught myself sighing, and follow by a pierce of pain right through my heart. Have I not love myself enough? 

There's so much things running in my head and my body is not physically well. .