ƸӜƷ Angela's

Currently on the bus and I'm listening to my fav 说好的幸福呢. Did I tell anyone about this all time fav song ? Yes , never ever felt tired of listening it over and over again because this song is too special to me for some personal reasons in the past when I first heard it from someone special. From then, it has always been categorized as my fav and the best part is sang by jay chou. 

Feeling so defeated rn. I'm tired . Hadn't been sleeping well these few days having to wake up like 4am , 5am and consequently. I hate how much I have to do for my family but they will never appreciate the little things I've done. I hate how I have to yell and talk to them in another tone just so that they know how hard it is for me to handle. I hate how I have to feel so disappointed in both of them whenever I am facing a problem. I hate how they don't understand me . All I wish is a family that stay together , eat dinner together every time . Go out together occasionally on Sundays for family outings . I wish I can confide feelings to them whenever I have to. 

Must I really cry in front of them just so that they can take actions ? Take responsibility of us ? Never ever feel so upset before that I literally put down everything and get changed to leave home because I had enough of putting up in both of them. Tears drop omw out, feeling how much like a loser in the public. 

Just sometimes , I wish I don't have to go home. Done being filial.