Me.

It took me really long to type down what I'm trying to say soon to come. It's been awhile since I last blog prolly because life has been pretty good to me. No dramas nor sadness ,it's just me with me nobody else. I thought of sharing some facts about myself today. I've always wanting to talk about this, openly and express it on my blog. However, I do have considerations on whether it is right to have my heart bared in the open for everyone else to know. So...I still decided to give it a shot .

I'm the kind of girl that could text you every single day,(obviously only because I really like you), and I could be at your beck and call for that period of time. I would be sad and cry when you don't reply, and I'd be over the moon at every text you give.But... the bad habit I have is simply leaving without even telling you.

Whenever I say things like "BYE", don't talk to me anymore.........I actually still do care and I only do that when I really like you so much.(I know it's damn weird)

When I wake up and it just snapped my mind that you probably don't like me as much as I would to you then I will walk away. And I walk away almost so quietly that most of the time none would realize. I don't know, I hate this about myself especially when I am to leave someone, the process I put myself through is really stupid, I really break myself down to the lowest..and cry and hurt and whatever.

But yes, fact about me: I always have the habit of leaving someone without saying goodbye or even explaining why, I simply ASSUME the worst and leave because I can't take the worst if it is to come.

 I'm sorry for everyone that I did this to :(



Side note- To someone:
 My heart really likes you, I like how I can get lost in your eyes. You're just someone that knows me inside out besides my close friend. Well...I must say I hardly open up I only do when I'm comfortable with you. Guess you made it. Nothing changed through the months. After all the things we've been through, I really miss everything about you. Pampering me like a little princess, calling me in the middle of the night because you've came right under my block to deliver all the casual remarks I've mentioned to you in our texts. How can one simply not touched by all the little things. From the bottom of my heart, I wanna thank you. Thank you for accepting who I am and go through all the heartache with me. Xoxo. Love you.