Someone like you.

 Back then, why did you chose this necklace for me ? I still don't have an answer for it. So ... how should I start writing this post filled with sadness again . Le sigh. 

Time flies , 4 years of  love/friendship ,  6 months that we had been officially together. It had been so long . Reminiscence how we came all the way till right now , I must say it's a bless knowing someone like you that would not leave me no matter if I'm attached or not. You're always there for me . I admit I hurt you so bad last time but I'm so glad that you're staying strong and willingly to endure all the way through , I wondered how you did that.  Remember that I went Taiwan for a week during the March holiday? I wore the necklace you bought for me during valentine day. I swear that I wore it every single day without fail. I cleared my thoughts over there then memories of us came falling back into pieces, bits by bits. I realised how much you actually mean to me. I told myself that I shouldn't wait any longer, I don't care what others may say , I want us back. A week later, when I reach Singapore, I was looking forward to you , friends and home. To my disappointment , you started to withdrawn yourself back . I knew that our feelings are slowly fading. Did you know how crestfallen I was to know that someone's promises are broken.  I became really vulnerable. Promises that can't be kept are called lies. However, again we came back together right till 6 months. I'm always very happy when I get to meet you even if it's for a short while. We talked , laughed , gossiped, played everything that a best friend would do . I feel really comfortable and secure with you by my side. Particularly, there's a night when you send me home , I was really surprised that you suddenly hugged me and you told me: "never ever leave me anymore"  I promised you , and I mean it . Back then , I feel that the  passion was so strong. I can't love you enough. 

Look at what we had become right now? Fights , quarrels , arguments that is never ending. I'm so sad every time we have to talk to each other in a serious tone or even an angry one. It is rather heartbreaking. You're the one that I could rely on no matter what happens, but why are you doing this to me? It sucks when I see no hope in this hopeless world. You gave me strength to move on, you're just like my pillar of strength but I feel that this pillar is falling apart . I don't know why do I have so much insecurities . I'm really afraid... You can flirt, you can hang out with them girls , you can do anything you like/love because I absolutely don't want to restrict your freedom I only wished that whatever you do , would you mind considering my feelings and be honest with me in every ways?  I really hope we could go back to how we used to be, much happier, lesser troubles , lesser arguments and more compromises . That's all I ever yearn for, yet again it takes two hands to clap always remember. 

And even so , right now , all I'm left with is to trust and believe in you. 

I trust that I'm your only one.