Weak-hearted

Sometimes , i wish everything , all these misery i had was only just a dream . Everytime i tried to work on my studies , a part of me was thinking about all those beautiful memories that i once had , inside , its tearing me . I tried over & over again but to no avail . All those flashback memories was still fresh in my mind , i can't afford to stop thinking about everything. Literally, every single thing in my life that I've nvr once succeeded in doing so. Yes , I feel so useless . All these insecurities just kill me bit by bit.   Again , you all are not me , time will eventually heal , yes i know but ... what i'm concerning is NOW , it just dont go away , what to do .

I set up this protective walls around me to not get hurt by the same mistakes I've made again. I am under-going so much lately , too much for me to handle . I feel like giving up at this moment , just let it go and sleep for days & days peacefully. I hope for time to rewind back to the olds. But i realised it will never be .

我渐渐明白， 那个你，早已经在当天离开的时候也离开了我。