BIG QUESTION MARK.

The moon looks as if it's emitting it's own light

I AM FEELING SO DIFFERENT. MY HEART IS WAVERING. I THINK I AM ATTRACTED TO HIM. BUT I THINK ALL HE IS TO ME IS JUST BEING FRIENDLY. HE'S TOO FRIENDLY. I AM STARTING TO MISTAKEN HIS FRIENDLINESS FOR LOVE.  BECAUSE IT'S ONLY INFATUATION .....

I'VE GOT THIS IMGAE OF 'MR WONDERFUL'  GUY IN MY MIND  WHICH I DON KNOW WHEN I STARTED HAVING IT . I DON'T KNOW YOU & YOU DON'T KNOW ME . HOW COULD I STILL FEEL THE STRONG CONNECTION?! . DAMN STUPID RIGHT! >:(  AND THEN , I KEEP THINKING , HE MIGHT HAVE SOMEONE HE LOVE , AFTER ALL , WE ARE STILL BOTH DIFFERENT WORLD PEOPLE... I JUST HAVE THOSE WANT-TO-KNOW MORE ABT YOUR EVERYTHING KIND OF FEELINGS. ITS NOT SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN CONTROL -,-

BUT I STILL BELIEVE WHAT ALICIA SAID , MAYBE ITS BECUS ONE OF HER POINTS SHE MENTION . (LOOKS)  HE SEEM SO FAMILIAR TO ME , I FEEL THAT I'VE SEEN HIM? KNOWN HIM ????????  SOMEHOW HIS BLUR MEMORIES STILL APPEARING AS IN IT JUST TOOK PLACE YESTERDAY. AND , BECUS OF VIVIEN MENTIONING HIS NAME DURING RECESS YESTERDAY , I SMILE LIKE NEVER BEFORE. I CAN'T CONTROL THE BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH .  CAN YOU IMAGINE , HE LIGHTED UP MY GLOOMY DAY !!! I CAN FACE  MY LAPTOP THE WHOLE DAY , JUST BY SMILING LIKE A FOOL TO THE SCREEN , BEING LIKE A REAL STALKER ! ~____<     AHHh!!! I WANT GO CRAZY ALREADY ._______.   I FEEL SO STUPID , SO IDOIT , SO FOOLISH  !!!! THIS IS LIKE A PRIMARY SCHOOL KID MAN!!!

CRAPPPP OFFF , ITS GONN FADE. NOTHING ELSE. ITS JUST A MOMENT OF ATTRACTION . YES IT IS ~~~~      I'M SO-NOT LETTING THE HISTORY OF THE PAIN TO REPEAT AGAIN! NO MOREEE!!! D:

 &&the very least , i still believe that my pain is still there. its like a disease that can strike back anytime , anywhere. hence , my protective walls are much strongER.