Struggle

Just like the past,
I wish someone would lent me their's shoulder when i feel like crying .
I wish there's a listening ear operating 24 hours .
I just need someone that understand me .
I've been feeling so lousy these days. Not for anything but for my emotions.
Oftenly , i would write down whatever i feel on my blogger but did not post it out as somethings arent meant to be shared. And then , i caught myself tearing .  I want to get it over , its hard yknow. Its not like abc. I'm trying to avoid many things , people nd the truth as much as i could to not getting emotionally upset. I hope i would feel happier inside.

People dont see the effort someone put into . Rather , they gave it to certain people that don't deserve anything i should say . No offence though . They jump into conclusion . They accused. I hate this bullshit. I just want things to work out my way.. Just for the start of school , i feel this way , becus i realised its nothing actually. I shouldn't have put much effort into something that is nothing. They are all surface people , i guess. Perhaps , i hadn't put in much effort in front too . Its useless trying to fight for a place there . I rather not.. I quit trying to do so . Focusing on bball which is my only motivation for school. And then , when zone & national all ended, i would have to search for my new motivation .. as , somethings& people is no longer there for me . Everything is not worthwhile.