Mixed Feeling

Hye readers , i shall forget all about my emotional stuff ,
and i would blog less of such things (I'll try not to)
I'm feeling kinda shag due to lack of sleep and the amount of energy i use up each day .
i slept for 3 hours today and i eat a lot for dinner .
feeling kinda weird cus i eat a lot a lot these few days .
I dont do that in the past , in fact i eat super less.
Probably , i'm still that emotional and tired or what ? Hmmmm .
My eyes are super heavy and  vivien still ask me if i'm sick anot cus she feel my forehead and neck .

Alright , i think this space is lacking of proper post so here is my reason to update about today .
TODAY hasnt been a pleasant day for Alicia , Vivien and i , well i dont know about others .
Had unfair match with the singapore team .And i sprain my ankle ._.
becus - are bias , and oftenly , i keep having fouls while others dont have  .
I tried to layup 95% was being push and thus my ball went to other direction .
5% was i didnt score , i'm feeling super guilty . Sorry .
I dont know how to express my fustration towards - .
I'm beginning to hate - more after today .
he said he wanted to train us on being strong enough despite they keep foul ,
but isnt is over the limit? This was getting too far beyond,
we have only 2 times free throw , how about them ?!
Think about all the words you said , what more ?
What do you exactly want from us, its like super being bias .
and then everything we do also wrong . Nothing seem to please you .
Fine , we not gonna please you then .
Since you hate us so much , dont bother coming nd just for a few hours \:
When did you ever encourage us on? Maybe ONCE when i played NZ .
but yeah , its getting more and more obvious that the outsider said is true. No more doubts.
nd for what you said to our - , you seriously went over , nd you hurt her \:
Fuck , dont look down on us and SHE . Its killing her \:

Today sucks to the core,with what he do to bring all of us down (physically & mentally),THANKS LOT -.-
NOTHING had work out today , including some liars in our team \;  yknow.Zzz .

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And super lastly ,
I dont know how to express myself in terms of words/action ,but i'll try my best to summarize as much as i could in the small space here , So whenever we had our 'mini quarrels' or whatsoever you called it , we always manage to back again , we dont have to please the world to understand about us nd it doesnt matter to me anymore . I mean seriously , they dont know anything or whatever they might think , just so be it .Well, I know I've never been nice to you(physically/mentally/emotionally).I'll take this mini chance to say Sorry for ytd night.  But I still love you. You make me feel loved and I can't thank you enough. I'll love you for as long as I can. :)