Sighhhh.

Someday, I might just stop trying. Had enough of rejections, had enough of last minute cancellations, had enough of 'see how', had enough of last minute people cannot make it. Had enough of feeling one sided, had enough of always making sure I don't lose touch with the ones I care about. Had enough of planning this and that. I'm still human, I only can do so much. I feel disappointed as well each time I got rejected even though I don't say much. 

At the back of my mind, after so much of 'had enoughs' I know I won't stop trying. I don't know what they think but I really don't want to end up losing any close friends just because I didn't initiate on my part. 

Maybe I should stop trying so hard and just work for the next month before school reopen. I'll just get immune to it very very soon.