Alone

Sometimes, I just hate being one of them. I just feel like as time grows,  everyone of us have different thinking and it is getting me nowhere. I feel the distance somehow. I do regret a lot of things but I don't want to portray myself as trying too hard. At the end of the day, I'll always like to tell myself that all these doesn't matter at all. Is how you think of yourself that matters. I feel really uncomfortable as a whole sometimes and I find none to talk to. I wish someone there could actually feel me somehow. It is so bothering. Maybe I'm wrong about what they think but their actions always ALWAYS prove to me that I'm right. Xx matters so much to them which I don't understand. I would like to know more people, more friends but I don't want to try to be one of them. I just want to be myself. Maybe I really don't belong with them. Idk. I wish I can stop caring so that I'll feel better. Maybe I've gotten too used to solitude and forgot how it is like to have friends. 

I wish time could rewind because I do pretty much regret those chances I didn't take . 

[Tmr it shall be the day I make myself feel better before I head to work! ] cheer up Angela!!