Fly Fly Fly~~away

Hi guys! I bet everyone is sleeping like a pig right now . Zzz . Haha . In about a few hours time , i'm flying over to Nepal . I cannot sleep well as my mind is flooded with thoughts. Mix emotions and feelings and i cannot describe it well in certain ways. :(   I've been too timid , too terrified with many things that i foresee will happen there. I know i might be overthinking things again, but if you aren't me , you won't really understand every single bit of my feelings. 

Frankly speaking , i can't put my mind in ease. Too many , just too many things. The awkardness we had , those quick glances , those surface words. I don't want it this way . I want it to be like how we are friends last year, i don't understand why we're in this state. I want it back , i hate all it use to be now. Now i get the meaning of" Once it's gone , it can never come back. " I understand now. However , i don't want it this way . I hope i can take my eraser and erase every bits and pieces of memories i had with you , by doing so , perhaps we can be friends back and things will not be this worse. Yknow , it was never my intention of letting it this way right now. This feelings sucks and it kills. I swear.

I'm afraid i'm not good enough , i fear a lot. I want to let it all out. I want to conquer this and get through it.  Ask me what i really hope to achieve for this trip? I want us to be friends and zero awkwardness and everyone is happy and REALLY bonded inner and outer.  

On a brighter note , i can leave singapore !THIS HELL! :p  My point is ....I am very thankful for awesome awesome friends i have . People like my dearest Weiting that lend me her lucky chain when i told her i'm super scare :') This really warm my heart. She da best :D Alicia Soh & Qianyu , that hear my rants about this trip over & OVER again . Hahaha , thanks la:))  Shaun and Rophe actually bother to call me to ensure that i'll have a safe flight and so on :))  Messages from Osmund , Qianyu ,Boonhui ,  kexin ,Kenny , Weijie, Alvin , Loretta , krishnan ,Matthew blahblahblah . K shall stop here. :> They are super cool and awesome ;'>

Alright , I hope i can survive till 22 yea:< AND i hope  we will have time to shop so i can buy something back for all my friends :D * Insert many lovesssss ! ;)

xoxo