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School has been pretty hectic for the past few weeks that I didn't really have the time to update this space. Running against time to complete tutorials, preparing for presentations and going to work. I'm glad that it is nearing to the end of the month which mean I will work lesser to prepare for exams next month.

I really want to do well this semester, I want to feel confident on every presentations that I'm presenting. I want to work on my public speaking skills. I want that confidence in me. I no longer want to feel disappointed. ( at least try to minimize that) I feel the need to do well because I don't want to put my internship at stake. 

Made a decision to go for an interview after graduation. I want to try because it is once in a lifetime. Even though there is a probability that I might fail, there is also a probability that I might pass even it is 1%. I'm so excited to learn the new elective that I've chosen ( I hope I get it...) 

Of course class is better because everyone is beginning to feel slightly comfortable. I'm speaking up more than usual in tutorials lessons as well. 

Not sure if I'm growing up but I'm giving lesser care about what people think of me , what I wear, how I feel or how my friends feel. Is it some point of time that I just want to let go? (Haha) 

Two days ago, my friend mentioned to me about how her friend is no longer a friend of her best friend (get it get it??) it got me thinking back. It is just that particular incident that causes the friendship to be broken. Can't help but to feel for her, I really want to tell her about my experience as well so that she know she will be fine at the end of the day. (Fyi she is also my friend that I've made at work, she is so bubbly cute and ways happy each time I see her, how could anyone not love her? my heart feels heavy all of a sudden thinking back and definitely I was wrong. 

Thankful to see Jia and Violet around because I'll feel so happy inside! Always got the urge to run up to them and tell them all about school or even just what happens few minutes ago! Hahah! Thanks for the random back hug stupid xmm! 

Last issue is that i was talking randomly to Violet and I happened to caught myself telling her that I was giving one or two words replies when someone is trying to make a conversation with me. Someone also mentioned to me before that my attitude need to maintain. I guess this is just in me which I guess is also a bad habit. The cold hard truth is that either I'm not interested in you or that your topic is not interesting enough for me . I give zero entertainment. (I know I know I need to work on that) Perhaps talk to me sth interesting then I'll try. Unless you are my close friends, I hardly will initiate a conversation with you which brings me back to a point that explains why I have little friends.